Yesterday I was very emotional, I think that bringing up mom makes brings out a lot of emotions that I haven't experienced. I guess that is part of the grief process and it keeps coming back. On Sunday I imagined she was talking to me like "I told you so". I am still angry about mom and that being diagnosed with HNPCC did not do her a bit of good. It isn't like they did any thing different. The surgeon didn't even do the surgery. He does research but if he doesn't pay attention to the basics of caring for his patient and treating them with respect I have no respect for him.
HNPCC is a heredity form of Colon Cancer that can be passed through generations of family undetected.